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  • Another Year

    Today is the 11th anniversary of my mom’s death and I’ve been grieving extra hard. In the past, I haven’t used this day to grieve her more than any other day. I haven’t really needed to. For some reason, I woke… Continue reading

    Another Year
  • How Has Sobriety Changed Me?

    Dear Mom, Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about my sobriety. I’ve been wondering how getting sober changed me. In what ways did I blossom into a new person simply by putting down the bottle and clearing my head? And… Continue reading

    How Has Sobriety Changed Me?
  • Open, Honest, and Braless

    Dear Mom, Sometimes I feel like I need to pinch myself. Like I’m living in a dream, and this can’t possibly be my life. Me, a mom? For real? A mom who looks forward to taking her kid to his… Continue reading

    Open, Honest, and Braless
  • Am I the Body of My Dreams?

    Dear Mom, It’s no secret that I’ve suffered with body image issues for the majority of my life. Long before I hit puberty, and my body changed in ways I despised, I hated my hair. I dreamt of having long… Continue reading

    Am I the Body of My Dreams?
  • Why Don’t I Drink Anymore?

    Dear Mom, Often, when I meet new people, the topic of my sobriety comes up. I’ve received judgment. I’ve received skepticism. I’ve received odd looks. But most of the time I receive curiosity. Most of the time people simply want… Continue reading

    Why Don’t I Drink Anymore?
  • I’m Ready for Another Adventure

    Dear Mom, After taking an entire week off from writing, I’m finding it challenging to start again. I’m not sure why. It could be my exhaustion following a week of epic adventuring in the rainforest. Or perhaps it’s the three-hour… Continue reading

    I’m Ready for Another Adventure
  • My First Beta Reader

    Dear Mom, I was reminded last week about the days when you’d be my beta reader. For so many years, you provided me with feedback, constructive criticism, and edits. Of course, there were also many pieces of writing that I… Continue reading

    My First Beta Reader
  • My Aha Moment

    Dear Mom, I’ve been staring at a blank page for hours. The cursor mocking me with its excessive blinking. I know what I want to write about this week. I know what I want to ask you. I know what… Continue reading

    My Aha Moment
  • What If I Had Asked for Help?

    Dear Mom, For years, and I mean for all my life leading up to probably last week after my new therapist helped me open my eyes, I believed I had gotten away with it. I had pulled one over on… Continue reading

    What If I Had Asked for Help?
  • Navigating Setbacks

    Dear Mom, I often feel like I’ve turned a corner. That I’ve somehow figured out a way to survive my life without you. Then, something happens. Not always something big. Often, it’s a seemingly insignificant moment which reminds me that… Continue reading

    Navigating Setbacks